Turning Back the Time?

When i was browsing through the facebook, there i saw few comments left by some EPs who are about to go over for an internship. Question concerning on what i am too concerned about before i went for my internship. Looking at those people i have sent for exchange, how they choose their path after the exchange experience and browsing through their photos taken during the internship and listening to their story was the most amazing things and it gives me a sudden satisfaction and tears of happiness that every hard work are worth it.

As an exchanger, we aim for providing people life changing experience as stated on the poster but now it no longer merely words written on the paper but it came true as for me. Seeing each of them flying of and coming back with their handful experience and craving a smile in their life makes me realised, being an EB member isnt only fulfilling our own human kind potential but others as well.

Its really a life changing experience and i would say, it will be with you because its part of your journey and the dots that u put throughout the journey, the time u spent will always leave a footprint in your heart. Something that can never be erase because 5 May 2009 to 23 June 2009 indeed is the period i spent in Shihmen Elementary School that i will never forget.

I'm glad that there is people who raise this school and i'm greatful that my faith bought me to this school i miss every single one in that school and time really flies that i'm now looking on the second batch who are about to go over for an internship in the other school whom my friend went to. If there are chance, i would love to go back and look at those footprint i left there, the translation board at the playground and the mable piece on the wall.

There are no words to describe how i felt but you to go through it yourself and yours might be different from mine. Mine might not be the best but its perfect for me.

I still remember the moment when i set my foot in Taiwan, i felt the excitement and anticipation. I got no idea whats going to happen and how everything would be. Its like a dream. I never thought i will make it this far in my life, away from home alone in another country for 2 months.

First saw AIESECers in Taiwan,CLLC. Felt so embarass when i saw my big big name on the manila card and he was holding it. " Welcome to Taiwan" is the first thing i heard with their warm smile. He was the first person to identified us :)

That night we were brought to their university for night scene.How wonderful it is. Everything seems like miracle.

First day in school, waving bye to the AIESECers and getting to my new school. This is the moment where they feel every of their hard work are worth it and they are achieving numbers while we do our job. Upon hugging each of my EPs when they were drop to their schools,gave me a sudden mixture of feeling..scared and nervous. Is this the euphoria?

Everyone in the schools were so busy but i have no idea hat they are busy with. I was shown the way to my room, which is the teacher's dorm and mine is at the ground floor.Outside one dog, Ah Huang and inside one, Ah Chai. I was indeed scared!! But Ah Huang seems to be obedient to me but not Ah Chai which is at the staircase. When i reached my room, wow..a perfectly groom place with humidifier,aircond,fan eventhough its a bit old but still useful, new pillow, new matress and new warm blanket. There are also a big enough wardrobe and also a study table at the corner not to mention a private toilet with hot shower available. Heaven.

Everything seems ok to me until i met Ah Chai alone. Well, nothing much but to pass by him everytime i make my way to get the broom and mop to clean my room. I think i scared the hell out of myself.And the funny thing was after i clean my room, i thought of going out from the dorm but the dorm steel door was lock...Actually not lock but..i just dont know how to open it. Thus i went back to my room and tried to get online. Thank god! atleast i can go online and talk to someone i know,guess who it is? Its Brandon and Kaiser! They were indeed concern about me until Darren called me up and ask if everything are ok with me, i'd say fine but actually it wasnt.

An hour after that, he and Sally turn up at my doorstep! thank god!!! He knew that i wasnt fine! omg! tears filled my eyes as i hug Sally, i was terrified..nothing decribe how i feel that moment!

They brought me out to the principle office and i was too scared to voice out anything. Darren is the one who knew what my problem is.Thanks alot!hugs~ When they were about to leave to other school, to check on other EPs, i hug Sally again wishing deep inside me,for her not to leave me alone here. I still remember Sally called me few times a week to check if i am alright with everything~thanks girl.

As days goes by, i get used to almost the place and people there. They are so friendly that makes me felt like home. Thank you thank you~~hugs hugs~ i miss you guys.
The CLLC members planned outing every weekend for us and we get to meet other interns as well. but usually i takes time to be close to a person thus i never actually close to any of the other interns until i came back to Malaysia.believe it or not? I still keep intouch and kind of close with a few of them :) We were close not during the internship but after when we came back ;)
Every single person who have added the final touch to the internship, i appreciate it alot and would like to thank you in a million. The teachers gave me a farewell surprise dinner and the kids are fabulous , will definetely miss you all~sobs sobs~

I placed something in the school for souvenirs, the woodcraft windmill because to this school, windmill is their symbol.The art ,the deco ,the theme, everything are wind based.
I still remember the time when i taught the kids some British accent English where they sometimes ask, why it sound so weird,lolz..and some of the kids actually came to the office and ask me for some guidance during the lunch hour. Can u imagine, walking through the hall when everyone were greeting ''Lao Si ,Zhao'' ( Good morning teacher) and u were greeting the elders.
Those were the days and does this means that my dream ends here? Ofcourse not! hehe i'm now seeking for the adventure part of my new journey. Want to know what it is? ;)

Its something that never ended , something that had sparks my life, something that had colour my path, something that i will bring along with me from this internship, that is the experience and heart. I learned alot and i found my path through this internship, i never thought i like teaching so much until this which have definitely makes my mind clearer on what i want.
So i'm glad that i choose to go for Exchange and never regretted.

Trust, Stupid!

It always happen when the person that u trust makes u feel so stupid that u start to doubt if u really actually trusted him/her.

Insecured? because you havent actually fully trust him/her yet.

Saying too much...

"Water reflect like a mirror but if only it was as clear as the mirror. Human reflect on their mistake if only they knew where have goes wrong"


Talking too much sometimes leads to disaster that you can never forgive yourself. People will never get into trouble by keeping silence but you will be in trouble if u talk too much.


Being honest sometimes might got yourself into some mess that in the end u yourself need to suffer from sticking all the pieces up part by part.


By why u still choose to say it out? being so mean that u know this might upset that person but this might also be the way, a chance for that person to change, to be a better person than stay on making the mistake again and again. There are only 2 possibilities when u tell-out-the-ugly-truth:

one. He/she will accept it positively and change


two. He/she might realised how bad it was and stirring up those negative thoughts that might drown him/her even deeper.


Have you ever wonder why urgent things are normally written in red? why teacher used to mark your exercise book using red pen? and why failure grade in exam are always in red?


Because they needed attention..attention for what? Just for your acknowledgement? NO! Attention for you to change....Why do you need to change? ...To be a better one.


Which one do u face often? one or two? ofcourse i did hope it will be the first one..afterall, its because we are close enough then only i told you where your mistake was. Do you think a normal friend of yours will bother to let you know where u have gone wrong and betting to screw the so-called friendship up like that? why do i need to bother putting up a thick skin for u?


what for? its only about the phrase '' I Care''...

Its always good to have a friend

It had been long since we we had our last long winded chat back from there and i'm greatful to have a catch up with you after all this while. Felt so relieve and comfy to have a friend and to share feelings and thought, laugh and talk together. Thanks for being there for me and thanks for spending almost 3 hours long! lolz.. = ='' I hope we can hang out one day after all this mess, after your final exam ya. hugs~

when i thought of.....

''i want one also,can i?''

shit! just when i decided to cabut from my lab...*thunder*


oh gosh.....i'm freeking cold here and cant concentrate in that dann assignment and decided to go back early after wasting like 5 hours here in the lab doing nothing.not productive at all and there it goes....raining!! counting 20 mins to 5pm before getting my card punch. u win ==

Mushroom after the rain

Have been long since i touch this blog..thought of getting a new one but then if i can dump the old and get a new blog, whats more if i did the same to the new one later?reader might need to retag the new address and i might need to inform the rest too..conclusion..revive this old blog..hehe

Few more weeks, first semester coming to an end ,first time with only 1 final paper.

Yesterday was Diwali for the Indians..Happy Diwali to my friends!

Today, crossing my fingers that going online for the right purpose...assignment :P but then ended up ....here! haha....someone told me that..promise whenever we came online, we must get our things done..but ...no la..later la later la....msn-ing,facebook-ing....and at the end of the day...nothings done :p

Few weeks ago, i went to Shel Nee and Justin wedding :) She was beautiful indeed and seeing her getting married makes most of us felt that time passed so fast and one of us are ready to move to the other stage while me......stuck in upm still = = yerr...i miss those days when we talk and laugh under one roof...chances to gather all our coursemate will never be there anymore accept through this kind of function..so miss you all le...

Coming December..there is another happily ever after coming up! Congrates to those newly wed and engaged :)

And as for me.......slacking here and there ,wasting time ,watching movies,tsk tsk tsk...

Sorry to those whom i ffk...sorry lo...

My mission for the day : get the THING done! its only a thing and not things...so dont slack anymore la...since he also kinda busy today..so i think i did better grab this time when he is not around to do my thing...orelse i will tend to give reason and slack another day..hehe...but forsure i miss you la...

Ofcourse la if i say this whole two month my boat is saling smoothly who want to believe. but if i started of with lots of ups and down then sound dramatic pulak :P
but then i realised one thing so far...time passes very slow..just whne i thought of counting back the days..its only 4 months but in merely 4 months there are period when i'm so wu liao and free and there are times when things stock up till i cant breath ...like now..but atleast i still gt time to update my blog :p
Recently have been busy with running samples and assay..previously busy with part time and money seeking..with just a glimpse, i spent half of the amount i earn previously although i didnt earn much also but its really a sweat and blood hard earn cash. i cut down alot on expenses including food but still money keep flowing out like water...rental,bills and more bills...sigh..
working while studying really isnt an easy task especially when your company is like so far away and you are earning so little.
ga yau ga yau ga yau!